[ maybe it's the fact that she does know natasha would and could leave any time she wanted but isn't that settles andy some about bringing it up. sometimes she just wants to acknowledge how tired she is. but her brothers are gone, and she's not sure who else gets that feeling. that sluggishness, that endless ache of life. ]

[ she laughs again, this one quieter, maybe less bitter, but still edging on a hollowness. she recognizes that feeling too. ]

I don't think it's possible for me to be still. [ she was born of the steppe, after all, and her inability to stop moving has escalated with immortality. she's been mobile since the beginning. ]

I've always been moving. It's a comfort, I suppose. Pain in the ass here, though. [ hard to fuck off on a space station. ]